Life goes on...

...and i'll move on...

In search of Happiness

Human beings are such amazing creatures. Each and everyone of us are always in search of something in life. No matter how hard it is to get it, we'd always get it in our own means.

Love is always a big factor in everyone's life. To achieve that, some may cheat, steal, kill, lie or even hurt others to get it. Some would jz let it flow past. If it belongs to you, it'll come naturally; if not, some would do it with uncalled methods with the intention to take it for their own.

People would do anything to achieve love in life. Not aware of how others would feel, they'd just go right straight into the picture and grab it like there's no tomorrow. For those being crushed of their happiness, there's nothing much to do anymore but to let go; which is a really hard thing to do if history is involved, be it bad or good. Bad experiences will always affect one's judgement, no matter the consequences as the conquest for love is so powerful, the whole world seems to revolve around that person.

For the sake of being loved or to love, unconventional methods will always hurt one party. If one loved another, boundaries and limits should be set and lame excuses should be excluded. If one had cared for the other, one should realized his or her own actions. But then again, it's a dog eat dog world. Everyone would kill one another to get what they crave.

For those who'd experienced their love being taken away, should know best how hurtful to be done upon and not let it happen to others. For those who really loved someone, should always remember the few morales in life - loyalty, trust, faith, responsibility and acknowledgement. But it's up to one's maturity and mindset to realize these few issues. But as said again and again, human beings are never perfect and will never be perfect as time goes by.

No one's at blame. Nothing's at blame. Just ourselves to be blamed for our own actions.

Love can never be forced. If it comes, we should just embrace it with our arms wide open. If it's not on your way, we should never force it our way. Destinies are not meant to be changed. It only happens in fairytales. Yet people are still way too, too stubborn to realize that. In the end, someone will end up hurt... always.

I've lost the battle and i will admit my failures. I will not blame myself or anyone anymore. I'll keep the fond memories in my stash where all memories are meant to be and learn from bad experiences. No one deserves to be hurt. No one deserves the pain and anguish caused by love. Love is and has always been a beautiful thing. But no thanks to human beings, broken hearts, dreams and hopes are always dashed into a million, unmendable pieces.

Everything happens for a reason. Well, mine didn't work out. But i'll live with it and have my head high up, facing reality and the world again. I will walk on in life, holding on to the remaining pieces of pride and hope i'm left with.

Only time will tell...

Memories

This song was our song. It brought back fond memories whenever it plays. But then again... memories are meant to be memories.

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield.


Life goes on. :)

Laughter cures all (Pt. 2)

Before i go off to sleep, i jz wanna share two more video with everyone. Fendy told me about this. It has two versions. Damn funny stuffs! Haha...

Check them out.

Animator vs Animation 1


Animator vs Animation 2


Hahaha... i can't stop laughing!! Well, it made my day. Thanks Fendy! Happy Birthday once more... :)

Nite!!

Laughter cures all

Lately i'm feeling very depressed. But somehow, i still had friends supporting me and all. I just can't stop thinking of things, esp of what has happened and what's happening behind my back.

Right now i'd need a good laugh, and this video actually did a very good job in cheering me up. Manda used to like this video too, but...

Anyway, check this out. The famous Torn Mime, but this time with a special appearance of the hot hot hot Natalie Imbruglia singing her own song. Check out her doing the actions too!!



Darn faaaarny!! Right?!?! Hahaha...

LoL.

Birthday dedication

The clock struck twelve... and no Cinderella is not in this story. Blaaardy hell...

*ahem*

Anyway, a good friend of mine just turned 20.

To the fella who loves cartoons. To the fella who drives a BMW 3 series. To the fella who only wears Rip Curl to college. To the fella who skips Agama classes. To the fella who drives up to KLIA just to watch airplanes and take pictures of them. To the fella who prefers KFC to McD's. To the fella who just turned 20 few hours ago.

Happy 20th Birthday...

Fendy

Many happy returns and best wishes on your special day. Happy birrthday, dude!

:)

Love & Birth Dates

Your Birthdate: December 3

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone. Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them. Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

This prediction thing is so damn right about me!! LoL. Currently i had met 2 true loves (although i don't believe in them...), but number of broken hearts would be 4 (counting recently). Hmm... i'll be heartbroken for one more time huh?

Hmm... who knows??

Optical Illusion

Check this out.



LoL.

Mirror of my thoughts

A week in Hell

Quote of the day:
Love is like liquor; first u'll enjoy it and indulge in it even more. Later on you'd be suffering the after-effects of having a terrible HANGOVER.

Finally our first edition of our newspaper for our final year project is done. Printed and handed up to Mr. Azmyl, our lecturer. I've not been resting properly and i've fallen very sick right now. I've been coughing non-stop since last week. Apart from the stress, i'm physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. There're so much to do and i can't stop thinking of things.

My heart's burning as badly as my throat right now. Out of anger, frustrations and the feeling of being depressed over what's been going on lately. To top that up, i just had another car accident. I shall spare the details. I kinda hurt my wrist, but what the heck, it's nothing serious. This whole week has been like hell to me. With assignments, with family and for some other reason as well. I really can't take all of this any longer. It's like taunting me and laughing at me. But i'm helpless and i can't do anything about it.

Today i was "dragged" along by the guys for a futsal session. It was so great of the guys to force me to go along with them; JP lent me his boots so i'd go along. Charles kept nagging me as well. Kevin kept insisting i come along too. Jared kept calling me to go along too. LoL. I never thought guys can be this bothersome. Haha... Fendy came along too. The whole session was actually one of the releases i've always needed to get my mind off things, even for a while. After futsal, we went for drinks and food at Subaidah. Fendy mentioned Counter Strike (CS) and few of us were very interested. Kevin, John, Fendy, Izham and i went to the cyber-cafe nearby just to satisfy our crave. The whole thing was very uplifting for my mood. But somehow it was just temporary. After a short talk with Fendy, i kinda realized some things.

I'm feeling damn hungry now. Maybe i'd go out for a quick bite and smoke to clear my mind. My body, mind and soul are feeling really really tired too.

I'm out.

It's so cold here

I literally meant it when i said that. I'm in Zahir's room, trying to complete the first issue of our newspaper. And i'm the only one doing the compiling and layout. Zahir helped but he's now fast asleep. I've been doing since 4am. I'm damn tired!! And that blasted air-con is blowing right at me! I need a ciggie too...

-_-lll

Had a really bad day. Alot of unexpected events happened, but then again... life goes on. I don't wanna care anymore. Even my blog has been visited by certain people (or person) who'd rather not be named, when it's easy to guess who is who by the way they talk. Sigh. And the thing is, i did not even ask for anyone's opinions - just a blaardy brain to process what is going on and blaardy common sense to forget about it cz it's no one's business but mine. But then again, it's their mouth and this is my blog. Like i'd care... no one's perfect! LoL.

While i'm typing this, the song Keep Holding On is playing! Haha... freaking coincidence.

Anyway, i think i better go back to work. Still got 4 more pages to go and the deadline is in another hour's time!! Gahh!! Everyone, including Manda is now happily in lala-land... i'm the only one here coughing my head off. *cough* It's still damn cold here...

I think i'm getting a fever soon. I'm out.

I'll hold on...

Keep Holding On
by Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Untitled agony

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Dreadful experience

I just got back from yamcha. Watched football with Keen Seng and Melvin. Man Utd thrashed Tottenham Hotspur 4-0. Great goals, except for one, which Paul Scholes scored because the ball was stuck under him after a pass. Hahaha... damn faaarny!! When we were on our way home, we saw a car accident. It was damn serious.

Somehow i remembered how i often get into car accidents, minor AND major ones! Minor ones are just scratches and lil' bumps. But what scares me most are the major ones. Counting til now, i've already had 3 major crashes. But miraculously i'm still alive! LoL.

Recently few months back (last year) i had one major crash at LDP. And when i said major, it was...

MAJOR!!

I was driving to college for the stupid CPM meeting when it was a holiday!! When i reached the toll, i was trying to get money to pay for the toll when the next thing i knew, i felt the whole hard impact onto my car. I looked up and there i was, with my car "brokeback mountaining-ing" a yellow car.

My car was thrashed.


My car was wrecked!! And i was only going on 60km/ph... believe it or not?? And the car i banged into was an hard-ass old Datsun!! And does anyone know how freaking HARD that old fella was?!?!

Its windshield behind were all smashed up. Overall its behind just got raped le. I'll spare the details as it was damn depressing. *hush hush* Repairs went up to 7K.

-_-lll

After that i swore to myself never to let my eyes off the road anymore. I don't want something like this to happen anymore. There won't be a next time.

I think i should get back to my work now. Class is at 8am. ICC!! Grrr...

I'm out.

The worst breed of dogs

Last night i went to Beach Club to celebrate Radlin's farewell party. It was overall okay, except that i didn't quite like that place. Not exactly a club which i'd go, but for the sake of Manda and Rad, i had to give in and go along. The night ended with a very bad situation - we were stopped by a police block and apparently, my alchohol level was high! And they threatened to take me back to the station unless i settle it on the spot. RM2000 was the compound it seem. And they wanted RM1000 to settle everything.

I was SO fucking pissed with that dogcrap! And his name was Wan (no offense to my friend, Wan) and he was FUCKING arrogant and full of shits! Charles held me back and did most of the talking. We were let off with a "compound" of RM100, which he actually needed to collect by blocking the view.

One last word... Malaysian Traffic Police SUCKS!!!

They are one breed of dogs far worse than the mongrels you see wandering around streets scavenging for rubbish!! They are so full of lies, shits and crap, it's written all over their faces!! They're a disgrace to the government and to the country!! Arrghhh.... i hate those DOGS!!!

Anywaaaayy...

I've this sudden crave for ice-cream.

Manda, Charles and i went to Damansara Cineleisure to catch a movie, and while waiting for the showtime, we went and walked around the compound and stopped by at Lecka-Lecka ice-cream stand. We had a mixture of three flavors, which three of us shared. It was really nice...

Thinking back, now i'm craving for ice-cream... Rum raisin, especially... Gosh! Why do i have to remind myself now?!?! *smacks head*

3-in-1

Three of us sharing. Obviously it wasn't enough for Charles. LoL.

Charles decided to run away with the ice-cream and hog it from everyone. Manda found him hiding behind a counter.

Anyway, i'm going out to watch Death Note 2 with baby now...

I'm out.